Remember as i said in my last blog, Im not good at writing and punctuation. Every post i would like to a give a quick life update. I haven’t posted in a couple of weeks as Ive had those busy life moments. I will give you some reasons why, first would be, Im 19. In the last 3 weeks Ive been doing a lot of study to be able to graduate University in business and travel and tourism. Guess what I succeeded. I reached my goal to finish. Secondly being that i just brought my first home. Ive been filling in paper work and trying to get all the essentials to be able to live in it. Being 19 this takes some time because i really didn’t know what i was doing.
This takes me into what i wanted to talk about. About a year ago, I was terribly sick. After a trillion and one doctors appointments going in and out of hospitals. Doctors couldn’t pin point what was wrong with me. I changed in a month. I went from being the bubbly, healthy, fit, happy kid that never stopped smiling and enjoying life to feeling as those i was a dead weight with no emotions. Its like everything i once was disappeared. I wanted to give up as i was done with trying to battle with my own brain, I really just wanted to be saved. My reality turned into my worst nightmare. As with my illness I lost all strength like i didn’t even have enough strength to cut up my own dinner or sit up straight. By having conversion disorder life got really challenging for me.
Here i am today realising. I loved proving myself wrong. Yes it was a lot of work to get through all those life challenges and I’m still going through it today. But I soon noticed that without the lows in life, you cant feel the intensity of the highs. You need to be able to feel the lowest of lows to feel the highest of highs. My teachers used get up me for having the illness that i couldn’t control, it made me feel even more worthless. My teachers and others would tell me I couldn’t be successful and that i would be nothing. I made myself live day by day. If i had a bad day I mentally got over the fact i wouldn’t carry it into the next. I soon gain to realise in my hospital bed that I tended to feel and get more and more alone. But then I knew, i always had my imagination so I knew i wasn’t going to be alone at the end of this.
I really cant explain to you the happiness I felt when I graduated. It was such a big deal to me. I felt a bit of that bubbly, healthy, happy kid that never stopped smiling and enjoying life come back to me. I felt content with myself.
As you get the point, believe in yourself, you are the reason why your not succeeding. I was so incredibly proud to be able to say i accomplished so much at a young age and if it wasn’t because of the hard times, i wouldn’t of thought or acted the way I did to be where I am today. All i say is just keep pushing day by day sooner or later life will take an amazing turn. Strive to be that person who inspires others.
The best revenge ever is success. A good heart is bigger then anything. Use pain to earn success that defines you. Be the person who loves to prove yourself wrong.